Monday, March 14, 2011

"i" is for INSPIRATION

Inspiration: an agency (i.e. a person or work of art), that moves the intellect
or emotions or prompts action or invention

While Kaleb was at school and Adelynn was taking her afternoon nap, I was sitting on the couch and began reflecting on my life. Do not get me wrong, I LOVE my life, but have been struggling for awhile. I do not know what has been wrong with me, but I cannot seem to get it together. You would think that after getting married and  having kids, I would feel a strong sense of fulfillment, but that feeling has never overcome me. There are so many things that I want to change, but am doing nothing to make it happen.

I want to lose weight...but have NO motivation to do so. I have struggled with this since I had for a total of 6 years. Whenever I complain to Mike, he just tells me "then do something about it". When he tells me that, I get so irritated - but he is right...if you do not like something about yourself - then you should do something about it instead of complaining! WELL.....I am going to do something about it! (Thank you honey for putting up with all of my complaints)

A big part of my struggle is not knowing who I am outside of being a wife and mother. I seemed to have lost sight of that. In the car tonight, Kaleb asked what I did for work and I said that my job is taking care of him and Adelynn. You know what he said to me? He said: "MoM, you really need to get a hobby"! My eyes got a little moist when he said that because it is SO true. There is 1 hobby that I have kinda started, but haven't given it my all, because of being afraid to fail. more!!! (Tara - get ready to make some REAL progress) I will fill you all in at a later date!

A "light bulb" went off in my head today on the couch. If I want to be happy and feel good about myself and my life...then I need to make it happen!!! I am sooo excited to make some changes in my life and cannot wait to see how much better life becomes. Sharing this new journey with all of you makes it that much better! 

 Today's post is about inspiration. Here is my inspiration: 

What/Who inspires you???



  1. that's awesome ash! good luck with it. you can seriously do anything you put your mind to, but don't forget that you are an awesome mom. that really is one of the toughest jobs, i believe.

  2. I love this post. It's awesome that you're taking on how you feel about yourself... it's important. Your children will thank you for it someday!

    And your little guy's comment... oh, these kids are so precocious aren't they? Little stinker. :)

  3. You aren't the only one in those shoes. I feel the same way. I used to feel like I did so much before I became a wife and mom, and now I feel like I am only a wife and mom and have lost the rest of the things that I enjoy. I feel like I need a hobby or an escape, but don't know what to do with it. It's something I struggle with and hope to overcome soon too! Good Luck with your new endeavor!